feeling skinny....looking fat

As I am lifting, weeding, painting, etc., I feel so much better. I feel leaner. I feel stronger. I can FEEL my muscles working.

It is SO frustrating to look in the mirror, and see me - -- still fat.

I know I have a long way to go. And building the muscles is the start to great things, which should end with weight loss, as the muscles use more calories. But right now, I still look fat in my mirror. And that is SOOOO frustrating.

I know I need to have patience. Because I'm doing this the right way - with lifestyle changes. Increased activity, better eating. So it will be slow progress, but it should be permanent progress. I need to stop focusing on quick results. That is not the answer.

So for now, I have to be happy FEELING better - stronger, healthier - knowing that looking better will come later.

God, grant me the patience. To know that I'm doing my body good by the changes I'm making. And that it's not just about the mirror.